Life is changing and the requirements for maintaining functionality are also. I feel like I am being torn apart sometimes. I know that it is nothing personal, just my own sensitivities to the changes in energies that are occurring on the planet. I have my good days and not so good days, like everyone else. I would rather have more good days now. Lately, I start to make forward progress and something comes up to challenge or cross me. I am very tired of this; I just want to make the changes and get on with it. I feel like I am wasting a lot of time every time that I have to regain my equilibrium. Things were never like this. I expect better from myself and the world around me.
I have been moving internally at first and now externally, toward making some changes that will set a better course in my life. I deserve to be happy, and there is no time like the present to have that happiness. I am making progress, especially in taking care of my body. Going back to the gym was the best thing I have done in awhile. I do not want it to be the only good new thing that I am doing, but with the change in energy, came some physical challenge. I am working through it, but I am greatly annoyed and distracted from my chosen course because of it. I am praying to get over it as quickly as possible. I would rather not say what it is; I don't want to give it any energy anymore. I am ok. I prefer to think of myself in terms of wholeness and well-being, as that is my natural state, regardless of some minor occurrences in the physical. I expect to be well, all the time. By the way, the energy in my body shifted before I went back to the gym, not after. Going to the gym has helped tremendously in more than just a physical way.
I just want to be myself, in all the wonderful ways that I can be. This largely centers around work related issues. I really want to get back to teaching classes/workshops again. I feel that I have a lot to share and some new things to present if I just spend some time gathering the information. I also plan on painting as much as possible, I have so many ideas now and I know that my guides favor that route as well. I have a lot of paintings in my head already, but that doesn't do anyone any good unless I paint them. I also want to get back to doing something in archaeology. I am hoping that the 2 firms in the area have some work this season. There hasn't been any work for the last few seasons (years). It's nice money and it's my field. I love archaeology. I miss it and want to get more experience in it. I have some ideas for research, but need to buy books, so as I change to a more abundant lifestyle, I can resume my interests. Why else did I spend about 10 years of my life in school, if not to use my education and work in the field of my choosing?
I also need to socialize and meet new people, but that isn't a problem once I am able to leave the hotel. Working nights is not conducive to doing the things that I need to do to promote myself and the things that I do. I need to move on. As the phrase goes, now is the time.
